A slow process

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Suddenly I don’t know what to write here. I have so much to tell you., but perhaps I’ll save it all for a future book, I don’t know. What I’ve gone through these last few years has been overwhelming and fascinating. A journey from being totally lost within myself to a place of inner peace and enlightenment.

But I’m not gonna stop writing or posting. I still have a lot to tell you here. I am still slowly approaching my art and my creativity. And it’s a big deal for me. I have to say that I never thought it would be so hard to come back after being burned out and blocked. It’s all connected to losing the connection to myself and my core, but as long as I am making progress in my self therapy work, I am also getting closer to my creativity -and I’m finally losing the heavy weight of expectations, self doubt and the feeling of constant failure when things are not going my way.

I can only paint for a few hours until I’m drained and tired. But it’s OK, I’ve accepted it and surrendered to this slow process of finding the right energy and focus I need to be able to get into the wonderful flow of creating. I really miss it.

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2 thoughts on “A slow process

  1. when i had too restart my life after a few troubled years it was very tiring time as my inner fire was busy burning away the pages of my past until the day come where i could just sit by the fire and look at the ashes of the memories of the people who wasted my feelings then i was ready to live again Stevie

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  2. Yes…it was all a waste but at the same time I am who I am today because of my experiences and crappy memories. I am not grateful for those but for learning about what is important in life and getting to know my true nature and strength.

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